guess what i am feeling so much better and much more alive there is only 4 days till christmas and i am not looking forword to it as much as i did previous years this year hasn't been the best quite boring might be the word but i've done loads of cool things like go to greece. ow and guess what has just happened my mum's sisters daughter had won a competition and the prize is to go on holiday but for the prize you have to be over 40 so she chose her mum and my mum my mum was so exited to get out of the house it made me feel like she hates living with us and she doesen't appreciate how much we do for her she never laughs with us anymore and i don't like it one day i am going to loose it infront of everyone and i don't care i just won't to know what my mom feels about us.